Monday, April 29, 2013
I am not doing too good at updating this blog. Maybe there is a subconscious reason for that. I don't know. I had my 2 month ICD follow up appointment this month. Everything looks good. It feels weird when they have to speed up my heart rate for a couple of seconds. It is an uncomfortable feeling. I get anxious when they have to do that. That is a feeling I don't want to feel on my own, that is for sure. The doctor looked at my scar and said it is healing okay. I asked him what that meant. He said that medically it is healing great. It is closed fully. Does not look infected or anything. He said cosmetically he should have done a better job at closing it. He told me that he normally does a straight incision, mine is diagonal, and he usually gets it closed better making a much smaller smoother scar. For that, he said he was sorry. I told him that all is good. I have gotten used to the scar and I am okay with what it is representing. Without this scar, there would not be a machine in me to keep me alive if my heart were to go into a bad rhythm. I told him that while I appreciate the apology, it is not needed. I go back in 6 months for another checkup with him. Meanwhile I have had to postpone my regular cardiologist appointment because of scheduling conflicts with my husbands job. I am not taking 3 kids to a doctor appointment. Not on my to do list. So that will happen at the end of May. I think everything should go well with that visit too. Maybe just an up in my medicine doses.